today I awoke painless and free
to do the world justice with my mind
unclouded by hate so here is a new search
I resume the original for the girl of my fate
here I sit the painkillers letting me breath slowly
the fresh air fills me the hope so full I may float
stop me now before I get hurt

all the painkillers wouldn't take away the hurt
you inflicted by existing with me
making me want to be something I cant be
so show me how you want me to live
let me make you smile just for once
just for a little while
did it work not again I have failed you twice
twitch once and these pills will take my life

breath in now feel the hope fleeting
in exhales the return from inverted inhales
this world of light gets darker each pill I pop
tells me of new things I need to know
I guess it is the darkness awakening
to show me my way back to the earth
I once called home lead me back to the place
I grew up here I remember this place
it smells of my failures and rings of rejection
to cure my pains ill need your affection

all the painkillers wouldn't take away the hurt
you inflicted by existing with me
making me want to be something I cant be
so show me how you want me to live
let me make you smile just for once
just for a little while
did it work not again I have failed you twice
twitch once and these pills will take my life

painkillers teach me how to live with a smile
teach me to deceive you, mistreat you
this pain is the filler of my void
please wont you please replace it
teach me my disgraces hopefully
your beautiful presence erases my past
and rewrites my future